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Sadster - Disintegrate
04:44
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I've been having problems
Getting up in the morning
Nothing's the same without you
I've been feeling nauseous
I'm running out of options
I don't know what to do
I wanna disintegrate, like I was never even here in the first place.
I've gone missing
From my family and my friends
I haven't eaten a single thing
How do I wake up?
When I haven't gone to sleep
You told me that you cared
I wanna disintegrate, like I was never even here in the first place.
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The room is getting colder
So I grab another sheet
This keeps on repeating
Til I'm buried underneath
I don't wanna get up
I think I'm good right here
I feel like I'm stuck
but that's probably just fear
I'm never getting tired again
No more hospital beds
No more worrying friends
My new life is about to begin
Days are getting tough
When you didn't even sleep
Not the sleep that you want
Not the sleep that you need
I spend all the night
Worrying that you're okay
Hoping everything's alright
Hoping that you'll stay
I'm never getting tired again
No more hospital beds
No more worrying friends
My new life is about to begin
The room is getting colder
So I grab another sheet
This keeps on repeating
Til I'm buried underneath
The room is getting colder
So I grab another sheet
This keeps on repeating
Til I'm buried underneath
(I'm never getting tired again)
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3. |
Sadster - So Sick
02:40
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I've been waiting for a long time
At any moment I could find the love of my life
I'm talking crazy, I'm off my rocker
It's in my DNA, what a shocker
Find me in the grocery isle
Buying ramen and looking vile
I'm so excited for what comes next
Will I be dead when I'm 26?
The clock is ticking, it's getting closer
To the moment my life's over
That I wasted- who fucking cares
Find me in the grocery isle
Buying ramen and looking vile
I'm so excited for what comes next
Will I be dead when I'm 26?
My chain wallet (is so sick)
My ripped jeans (are so sick)
My shark tooth (is so sick)
I guess I'm so sick
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4. |
Sadster - Nowhere Town
02:38
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Sometimes I feel like it's my fault
That I'm not good enough
No matter how hard I try
I will never cross the line
I'm going nowhere.
Sometimes I don't know what to do
I'll never be enough for you
Will I always be alone?
Am I just on my own?
I'm going nowhere.
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5. |
Dulled
04:06
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I keep spending all my time in the past
drained by the pictures on my desk
and nothing’s clear to me
where I stand and who I wanna be
Im just dulled out and wasted
a downward spiral im making
and as I try to fill the sea
and keep this ship from sinking
its easy to internalize
and put on the act
while you draw connections to
all the things I lack
and December is far away
but my December just might be today
and this isnt what I wanna be
when living becomes more like existing
{from Bojack Horseman}
(Usually when people ask how I’m doing, the real answer is I’m doing shitty, but I can’t say I’m doing shitty, because I don’t even have a good reason to be doing shitty. So if I say, “I’m doing shitty,” then they say, “Why? What’s wrong?” And I have to be like, “I don’t know, all of it?” So instead, when people ask me how I’m doing, I usually say, “I am doing so great.” But when this girl at the Jack in the Box asked me if I was having an awesome day, I thought, well, today I’m actually allowed to feel shitty, today I have a good reason, so I said to her, “Well, my mom died.” And she immediately burst into tears. So now *I* have to comfort *her*, which is annoying, and meanwhile, there’s a line of people forming behind me, who are all giving me these real judgy looks because I made the Jack in the Box girl cry. And she’s bawling, and she’s saying, “I’m sorry, I’m so sorry,” and I’m like, “It’s fine, it’s fine. I mean, it’s not fine, but, you know, it’s… fine. And I would like to order a Double Jack Meal, and I’ve kinda got somewhere to be, so)
dulled out and wasted
dulled out and wasted
dulled out and wasted
dulled out and wasted
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6. |
Alright, I Guess
02:50
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you say you gotta look for change
its not gonna come for you
i've been in this house
hear the rain let my roof get doused
now im in dorm rooms
and moving out
loved all my friends
i won't see again
that thought really kills me
maybe i should go to therapy
i should tell you when i feel depressed
know you're always trying your best
i just feel so fucking cruel
when did my friends get so cool?
guess we're all on drugs now
im still too afraid to leave my house
want a love that does not require thought
but drowns and ignores it
feels the same when the droughts in the storms hit
unafraid through the fights and annoyance
im fine with insanity
prefer strokes of color over grey skies
meant to text when you left that night
"i love you" through teary eyes
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7. |
Starting Up Again
02:54
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you made a promise
that you couldn't keep
held it deep inside your mind
and costed you some sleep
you were unstable
unable to see straight
when every little thing
and every word keeps you awake
its not like I needed some people to talk to
Im used to the feeling
of nothing happening, it happened for a year but now life’s starting up again
so ill keep on waiting
inside of these broken seams
maybe Ill stay inside
for the rest of my life, or just this week
because Im stable
or from the outside it seems
I can't go outside, or just ease my mind
I just wanna dream
its not like I needed some people to talk to
im used to the feeling
of nothing happening, it happened for a year but now life’s starting up again
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8. |
On Earth, My Love
02:26
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(hey caleb, i miss you
and i wanted to see if you wanted to do homework with me tonight
or just cuddle
but you're probably asleep so i'll just let you be
bye)
well that holy cup is running dry
she says to me throughout the lies
"some truth is found in up above,
you're burning down on earth my love"
she can't leave to the silent night
she says she's gonna stay the night
i guess its cold out
i guess its warm here
i guess i broke down
and beached ashore here
(that would be nice
if you could grace us with your presence
i won't cause any conflict
your little brother and sister miss you)
the hearts that you electrify
are dark with booze
and sex and lies
cause parts of me are hexed in life
well hark the herald angel cries
he begs of you, he pleads of you
glory to the mess you've made
glory to the mess you've made here
(i didn't do anything bad to them
when i was like, in weird mode
but i-
i just truly need you to be here
and i don't really know where you are)
prove all things; hold fast what is good
and she sings; songs past showed sainthood
i've never seen a wolf in sheeps' clothing
except you
the last you saw i was decomposing
saying what on earth could you even do
(happy new year!
hey kiddo, we were just calling to say happy ne- new year,
not birthday,
happy new year
we love ya hope to see you soon
and have a great year buddy
bye)
{Lyrics from Bedbug}
look at all these lilies, there must be fucking hundreds
the choruses of frogs, croaking through our car window
i think we're leaving or just crossing the country
grabbed a couple scrunchies just in case our hair grows long
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